Lyrics

SCARE YOURSELF ALIVE
(LIVE CD/DVD)

Wide eyed
Open mouthed
Blank faced
Low clouds
Long walk
Up from hell
But I came back
Back unbent
What it means
Is that I'm good
That much
Is understood
But all in the room
Is dark because
Life is no longer what it was

Lawrence of Suburbia
Real life is murder
Wake up from Utopia
On it again
All aboard the moneytrain

Everyday
As a rule
I'm distant
I'm cool
Not the same
As before
I've folded up suicide
In four
But this dirty sun
Shining down
Pierce the dark
And the sound
All you'll see
Is a tightlipped smile
On a scared little man
As the train runs wild...

Lawrence of....

You scare yourself with the future
Yeah its hollow chest seems full
No room for rebellion
You only see the strings that pull
Scared into boredom
Yeah 'coz the things that tempt your fate
Just grows into trouble
Both some old and some up to date
Scare yourself into empty space
A distant star above the human race
Scare yourself about the getting down
'coz when you look down you never left the ground

Scare yourself into darker nights
Scare yourself on how you live your life
Scare yourself far away from the light
Today is the worst day of your life...

You're too afraid to remember
You know you're going to dream what you saw
But you will not be listening
To what it says but for the knock on the door
Scare yourself up against the wall
Your face is white from a voice that calls
You're the trap and the bait as well
You're so smart you're gonna scare yourself

Scare yourself into darker nights
Scare yourself on how you live your life
Scare yourself about the getting down
'Cause when you look down you never left the ground...
You never left the ground...

Like a roach in a sink, I was fighting the water
I fell on my back down the drain
I'd drown you'd think but no sooner than later
I was back on my feet again
Yeah, I crawled on the streets, looking up at the buildings
And often I hid my face
I paced among feet, your floor was my ceiling
But now I live like I own the place

On the road below me
I smile at the joys of travelling
On the road below me
I can handle almost everything
On the road below me
First I was sad; but now I'm free
On the road below me
The distance from here to a memory

Every day was a mountain, the fear of what hid
Inside of the timeworn phrases
I went from pale to gray, from being shut away
And now I can't resist new faces
Days become weeks, yeah, March becomes May
Looking back at my sleepless nights
But, hey, I'm built for trouble and I can take a lot
And I can safely say: "I'm allright"!

On the road below me ... Allright!

You know wonders are wonderful
-Even when they are being asked for..
Yeah, we just don't know
What life has in store for us..
Because the moral of this is immoral
And the moral escapes me now...

On the road below me ...

Wrong words
Out of confusion
Yeah, I risk losing
The flesh you wear so well
Lost words
Eating away with no patience
Noone mentions
Our hearts like a small machine
Giving
And finding the place where your soul is
It's just that I know this
It's near the wound - it's near the pain
Listen
To the warm red water
Making me smaller
And soft as tears - soft as rain

I'm finally on my knees
The stupid pride recedes
Baby, I'm all ears..
Finally
I hear every word you're sayin'
Baby, I'm a soft dog at your feet

Wrong turns
Maybe I ordered
But, you followed
Me straight to hell
And wild words
Like I know what I'm doing
Like I know who I'm using
I can never tell..
Changes
The kiss of life that I'm giving
I've been afraid for no reason
Again this feels like home

I'm finally ...

Yeah, it's nothing but spoken words
But, it's the words that hurts
And some will never be said again ..
Mistakes, we'll quickly forget it
The one false line, I really regret it
Because the original scratch remains

My feet were in London
My head in the clouds
And I'm constantly moving
With the holiday crowds
This happy future
Is a thing of the past
I watch the day ending
I watch shadows pass the city's
Arriving I begin to feel fine
Then the city sits down
And I go out of my mind
I've ended up taking
The longest way home
I'm cool but I'm all alone

Hey now I'm out the door like a cat
Across the tracks
And never once looking back
Hey now
There's nothing new in that
Not everybody knows
The good from the bad

Enough for one day now
The edge of the world
Look at the frontpage
And what it did to the girl
Her shit was together
Her feet on the ground
Now it's sounding like zippers
As the dryer goes round
To the man with the most
Whose face never changes
Enough for one day now
Yeah - I'm cool

Hey now I'm out the door like a cat
Across the tracks
And never once looking back
Hey now
There's nothing new in that
Not everybody knows
The good from the bad hey hey
Just hear what I say
I take the blame
But not the pain pain pain

From the steamin Mekong delta
To the shores of Tonkin bay
Bombs of yellied gasoline
Is making night as bright as day
And the mogul's hard tank masters
Adore their new grenades
And the D.A.D. find their 9" shells
Are great for border raids

Yeah! I'm superfurious
I've done it again
I reach 50 when I count to 10
Jihad, I'm getting mad
And there's no fuel left
For the pilgrims
Jihad, I'm getting mad
And there's no fuel left
For the pilgrims

And you can shake your fist at the T.V. set
And you can slam your hand in the table
And you can cry and curse
Through tightlocked teeth
Just as hard as you are able
But you can't run away from trouble
'Coz there ain't no place that far
No fuel left for the pilgrims
Yeah! That's just the way we are

'Coz I'm superfurious I've done it again
I reach 50 when I count to 10
Jihad, I'm getting mad
And there's no fuel left for the pilgrims
Jihad, I'm getting mad
And there's no fuel left for the pilgrims

This is tower again, do you read me? You can get the girls & the
videomachine but the fuel you asked for... You cannot have!

What?! Blow me to heaven!!
Jihad I'm getting so mad I'm getting so mad
..Who's mad I'm mad, so mad
Jihad I'm getting mad
And there's no fuel left for the pilgrims.
Etc.

There was a real thin line
Between right or wrong
In those Walt Disney times
When my parents were young..
But the line has disappeared...
And you wonder where it hides....
And you wanna go out; but you stay inside.....

I got run over by truth one day
Didn't see the red light
Since the accident I've walked this way
- I only did what felt right...
But from this day on; it's either: grow or pay!
Grow or pay
'Coz I got run over by truth one day

Sometimes the sky's so grey
That you cannot see beyond it
And even the wildest of dreams
- Can't take those lines from your forehead
Yeah! I know there's a bill
- And it's gonna make it's way somehow
With an excuse and a bow; I'll be paying it now:

I got run over by truth one day
Didn't see the red light
Since the accident I've walked this way
- I only did what felt right...
But from this day on; it's either: grow or pay!
Grow or pay
'Coz I got run over by truth one day
Grow or pay
From this day on it's either: grow or pay
Grow or pay

Grow or pay
I got run over by the truth one day
And since the accident I've walked this way
Didn't see the red light
But from this day on; it's either grow or pay!

Grow or pay
'Coz I got run over by the truth one day...

Do you really think that you're lost?
And that you'll never find the way
Learn the secrets of the woods
See the picture if you could
You grow a little every day
And now I'm grown and I look like you
Who'd ever know - how I turned out
But, I'm grown, and I look like you
I look like someone I never knew..

Speak while your lips are trembling
Talk to me when I'm listening
Finally someone said something good

We grow a little every day
And now I'm grown and I look like you
Like a voice that fills out the room
How do you know when you've grown up?
When you tie yourself down and give yourself up.

Speak while your lips are trembling
Talk to me when I'm listening
Finally someone said something good
Because we're leaving nothing
But moments of belonging
Finally someone said something good
Finally someone said something good
In the end someone says something good..

I keep moving into myself
I keep all my hate to myself
I keep the polaroids of my hell
I keep all my hope to myself

Days when life does man a favor
Days when everything glows
Days when luck is handed over
Still my eyes are closed

Days when life just grabs your shoulder
Days when everything flow
Luck has found its rightful owner
Still my eyes are closed..

I know that your eyes are on fire
I know that your ears are on me
And because my thinking is quiet
I'm the calm and deep blue sea

Days when life does man a favor...

Days when life just grabs your shoulder...

I hope my mind is like a parachute
I hope it opens on time
I know the same as I knew before
All is lost inside
I know that I must turn and strip
All the armour from my heart
I must stop all this
From going wrong
It mustn't show on the outside
A broken brain
With the truth
To be as bad as it takes
Yeah to be a true saint
In the name of the unexplained
Ain't gonna give 'em no rest
This is serious business
In the name of the unexplained
I know that life's real mystery
Maybe further out than death
If I know everything about the world
I wish I knew a little less
We all stare at the ground
Hands in pockets going round 'n' round
Abuse and irony hurting me
The blisters on my tongue
The shamefaced shuffle
The tightlipped smile
Taste your medicine
I know who I am
And so do you
It just goes round and round
I know my mind
Is like a hurricane
And I will blow you all away

Emotional morons
Knows from instinct what to do
The winds are northern
This is the sound we persue
You never know it
What we carry around inside
We never show it
But we carry it for life
Down on the square
All my friends are there

Camping in Scandinavia
We don't mind
Camping in Scandinavia
When the sun don't shine
You'll see it upon arrival
We've been beautiful 'n' suicidal
Camping in Scandinavia
We don't mind

Smoke is rising a sattelite
For every tent in the snow
Of the TV in cities of 70's cement civilisation...
No real need for a God hybernation.
We all wake up by March
Down on the square
All my friends are there

Straight out of frame'n'bend out of shape
Nothing's real x-cept the money that we made
Staring at the place where the 2 walls meet
Yeah! - Take a chair'n'have a seat...
Well, I should see it as a brand new start
But I'm all Adams apple'n'a f-f-f-fast beatin' heart
My nerves they twist'n'they jerk
See no drugs will do the work
And I'll tell U for free
How I started stopped bein' me
'Coz U won't believe what I believe when I'm alone
Bad Craziness
I got to tie my head to the T.V.'n'unplug the phone
Bad Craziness

See the shadows dancing' on the cieling
Say, do U hear what I hear?
Like a T.V. no one watches
My head's filled with Yeahs'n'Overmuches
Walking trails on my livingroom floor
I feel that life won't be the same as before
Like an x-plorer; lookin' for help
I'd be happy to find myself..
And join the temple of hope
To keep my balance on this globe
'Coz U won't believe what I believe when I'm alone
Bad Craziness
I got to tie my head to the T.V.'n'unplug the phone
Bad Craziness
I had 2 feet on the ground now I'm almost gone!
B-B-B-Bad Craziness
'Coz U won't believe what I believe when I'm alone
Bad Craziness ...

It's a bird, no a plane, it's a maaan insane!!

You won't believe what I believe when I'm alone
Bad Craziness
I got to tie my head to the T.V.'n'unplug the phone
Bad Craziness
I had 2 feet on the ground; now I'm almost gone
B-B-B-Bad Craziness
Now you won't believe what I believe when I'm alone
Bad Craziness
Bad Craziness
Yeah!
Bad Craziness Bad Craziness
Anything for a good night's sleep
Bad Craziness
I'm counting nightmares instead of sheep
Bad Craziness
'Coz U won't believe what I believe when I'm alone!

I'm your cigarette man
I'm doing the best I can
I'm your cigarette man
I'm doing the best I can
You might find me on your TV-screen
Or on the cover of a magazine
But I'll be sitting on a horse
With a smoke of course

Coz I'm the Marlboroman
- I'm the Marlboroman
Coz I'm the Marlboroman
- I'm the Marlboroman

I just stand here in the shade
I'm american made
Coz I'm tough and I'm mean
I'm the american dream
Do as I: Inhale, don't blow it!
You'll get the feeling & you know it...
When the smoke gets to your brain...
It makes you quite insane...

Coz I'm the Marlboroman
- I'm the Marlboroman
Coz I'm the Marlboroman
- I'm the Marlboroman

Mumbling goodmorning & raising my head
A bad breath kiss to my pillow pet
I take a look at the day turns & stay in bed
Open my eyes when the day have died
I turned the world and I slept allright
Now my daymare is over I zip my jeans tight
Oh lord won't you bless this night...

From the pale lips of a youth who lay
I'm sleeping my day away
And when the night comes to the city I say:
I'm sleeping my day away
Yeah! With my pale lips in the pillow I say:
I'm sleeping my day away
After dark is the game I play
I'm sleeping my day away I'm sleeping my day away

When my dreams begin I'd be proud to be letting you in
With a smile on my face I guide our dreamboat in
So if you wanna travel along with me
You better sleep tight the rest of the day
You see I could be a sleeper it's not rest I lack
'Coz I hit the sack when the suns coming back

From the pale lips of a youth who lay
I'm sleeping my day away
And when the night comes to the city I say:
I'm sleeping my day away
Yeah! With my pale lips in the pillow I say:
I'm sleeping my day away
That after dark - is the game I play
I'm sleeping my day, I'm sleeping my day, I'm sleeping my day
I'm sleeping my day away
I'm sleeping my day away
Yeah! Now I've turned the world around yeah! I did it again
I'm sleeping my day away
And now I have to wear my shades down sleepers lane
I'm sleeping my day away
Yeah! All the good people have gone to bed again
I'm sleeping my day away
'Coz the devil's at work inside my brain
I'm sleeping my day away I'm sleeping my day away
I'm sleeping my day away I'm sleeping my day away away...

I learned politeness on my mother's knee..
I learned by uprightness my number of friends
Should increase...
- When I think about the things I've done...
I laugh out loud to noone ...
- Yeah, to noone..
- 'Coz it's so hard to meet the eyes that I see
When I try to open up my heart
There's something inside me'n'I know it's good...
- But understanding, it's misunderstood
At the end of a smile, there's a laugh'n'a 1/2

- But I became honest Mr. Mistaken
In spite of the curves my smile was makin'...
Bumpers and kickers in one big stream
I grew up in a life size pinball machine!
Yeah! - They're mean!.
'Coz it's so hard to meet the eyes that I see
When I try to open up my heart...
There's something inside me'n'I know it's good..
But understanding, it's misunderstood
At the end of a smile, there's a laugh'n'a 1/2
- On my behalf
There's something inside me and I know it's good...
But understanding, it's misunderstood
At the end of a smile, there's a laugh'n'a 1/2

- I tried to fill some silence -
'Coz the silence feels so long..
- I knew the ice was gettin' thinner
But I kept skating on!..
My mother threw me into this world as a winner
- But by the light of the yellow beer
They tell the jokes I'll never get to hear!!
- On my behalf
There's something inside me and I know it's good..
But understanding, it's misunderstood
At the end of a smile, there's a laugh'n'a 1/2

- On my behalf
There's something inside me and I know it's good
But understanding, it's misunderstood
At the end of a smile, there's a laugh'n'a 1/2
At the end of a smile, there's a laugh'n'a 1/2.
At the end of a smile, there's a laugh'n'a 1/2..
At the end of a smile, there's a laugh'n'a 1/2...
At the end of a smile, there's a laugh'n'a 1/2....

I'm looking at the sky, I'm trying
Not to cry, coz' it's over
The're turning down the light
It's late now
Wave the last
Goodbye...

Coz it's after dark now
And Disneyland is closed
We've been served
Icecold beer
And Walt is our host

It's after dark now
And Disneyland is closed...
The party is over
The night is here
Let's bring out a toast...

I was driving home late 1
Saturday night
Suddenly I saw this flashing light
A big hole in the ground
I thought it was a lie
It was a satellite It fell out of the sky

Now I'm 40 feet below
Running my own show
Isn't that wild
The programs allright
Coz it's my satellite
Yeah wild
Hello there at home
I'll be your host tonight

I'll give you x-rated nightmares
Your mum wouldn't allow you to see
Tom & Jerry & films 'bout the birds & the bees
Turn your big dish down & receive my lot
Forget about the news, workout & 700 club

Now I'm 40 feet below
Running my own show
Isn't that wild
The programs allright
Coz it's my satellite
Yeah wild
Hello there at home
I'll be your host tonight

Yeah wild...

Gently my eyelids close, I'd rather be good than clever
I'd rather have all facts wrong than no reply whatever..
I learned before I could speak with those "being patient eyes"
When God created my kind. But he forgot to tell me why
So gently my eyelids close..
All alone, at home I sit - I'm very tired of it
Burn the midnight oil or pour it on my salad
I lost the thread I thought I had...

Led by hearts & ears - memory lagging behind
No shame being a fool, I got many things on my mind
Pick up the phone on first riiiing - I never get out anymore..
There's nowhere to go, but back and there's quicksand outside my door
So gently my eyelids close
All alone, at home I sit - I'm very tired of it
Burn the midnight oil or pour it on my salad
I lost the thread I thought I had.. I lost it - I lost it. Yeah!
Is that a shadow - or a hole in the floor?
And what's that noise outside my door??
Home alone. On my own.. And all alone...

Sometimes when I'm dreaming
Heading to God knows where
That's when it hits me
It seems I'm already there
But there's no forgiving
In the silence of my mind
Nothing is living
Nothing there to go round

If this is what it looks like
When the world's gonna end
Then it's allright
If this is what it feels like
Then I'll do it again
Yeah it's allright
Yeah I know that I'm glad it's over
But what comes next may be worse
If this is what it looks like
When the world's gonna end
Then I'm allright allright

I've tried to be humble
I've tried to be proud
My world is cracked open
And I'm slowly leaking out
I call on an angel
Who often saved my life
Nobody sees us
When we're swimming through the crowd
There ways there means
To shatter your dreams
I lost the attention
If you know what I mean
I just letting go
Melting away
I finally see
I'm on the last day
But I'm allright

Yeah! See the milk's in the fridge
And it's turning into cheese
If I'm so smart; how come I ain't rich?
- No one knows'n'no one sees...
My moral compass went out of course
And I ran aground
U gotta watch how you get...
- But what the hell what the heck!
-- I mean, I wrote out the check!!
It ain't the money you got / No it's the money you spend
It ain't funny makin' fun of money
- See it's already a mess
It ain't funny makin' fun of money
The Visa's, Diner's'n'Master, Express

The cold hand of currency
Grips my heart at night
Right now it's raining unpaid bills
From an unknown height..
Though the story ain't that funny
There was once when I had money
I act like I got it / Pretend I know
- It's minus 500,000...
It ain't the money you got.. / No it's the money u spend
It ain't funny makin' fun of money
See, it's already a mess
It ain't funny makin' fun of money
The Visa's, Diner's'n'Master, X-press...
- Makin' fun o' money
It's the D.A.D.'n' the I.R.S.
Yeah! I ain't got no hot water
And the cold's running thin..
I keep conversations from a public phone
- In this place I call home; I'm livin' in...
Makin' fun of money
¥ $'n'all...
Makin' fun of money
All rolled up in a ball..
Makin' fun of money
And with a tremblin' hand:
Makin' fun of money
- I pay what I can
It ain't funny makin' fun of money
- No, it's already a mess
It ain't funny makin' fun of money
The Visa's, Diner's'n'Master, X-press
It ain't funny makin' fun of money
The D.A.D.'n'the I.R.S.
It ain't funny makin' fun of money
Yeah! It's already a mess
It ain't funny makin' fun of money
No'n'I know; 'Coz I tried it!?
It ain't funny makin' fun of money
- It ain't funny no!!
It ain't funny makin' fun of money
- I'm way behind
It ain't funny makin' fun of money
It ain't funny makin' fun of money

We went out riding
Me and my girlfriend Sue
Riding through the desert
Where noone ever gets through
We got off our horses
And laid down in the sand
Suddenly I noticed
That we were in Disneyland..

- And I was looking at the sky
Looking at the *** above
Thinking 'bout the days
When we were still in love
Sweet, sweet, sweet harmless love...

We saw the hills in the distance
Their shape was coming clear
Her voice was full of tension
As she whispered in my ear:
- If you take me there I'll make you fly!!
(She petted my hand and she gave me the eye...)
- We'll be closer to God - Oh me, oh my
I didn't know she was going to die!

Chorus

We was heading for the mountains
And we started climbing up...
But when we reached the viewpoint
Sue decided to drop - Aaaaaaaargh
She fell for an hour
Turning 'round and 'round like a wheel
And when she hitted the bottom
I knew my heart would never heal!!!

Now I'm looking at the stars...

I need to be afraid, said the kindweak man
As he lay cuddled up in his bed with those whispers around his head
Yeah, he'd come to nothing in a way - in a way that left him
With nothing to say but: o.k.! Yeah, his eyes only worked one way
There's no such thing as paranoia, it's always twice as bad as you fear
And the thing that destroys you, is that you had the answers right here
There's no such thing as paranoia, it's always twice as bad as you fear
I told you I told you I hate to say I told you so..

Old scars, but the cuts were new, said the girl, who loved many
But trusted a few, yeah, it's true - 'coz she feared anyone new
She lend out her feelings of pure affection, he kept the collection
And the missing piece of her heart - Yeah, her eyes only looked that far
There's no such thing as paranoia, it's always twice as bad as you fear
And the thing that destroys you, is that you had the answers right here
There's no such thing as paranoia, it's always twice as bad as you fear
I told you I told you I hate to say I told you so..

There's murder going on inside...
Yeah, 'coz you only see so much through the human eye
There's no such thing as paranoia, it's always twice as bad as you fear
And the thing that destroys you, is that you had the answers right here
There's no such thing as paranoia, it's always twice as bad as you fear
I told you I told you I hate to say I told you so..

Just like an indian
I chant and dance around
A shiny new room
With a shiny new sound

Today I woke up screaming
-Hello, my evil twin
Who's the old and boring
Like a change of skin
Yeah, I tried forever
Forever is like chains
Now the chain is torn
Inside this quiet form
Is a roaring thunderstorm

Friends stopped by
Left when they learned
All having wasted, time and concern

Today I woke up screaming...

Yeah, I'm for longer living
And I'm for laughing loud
Now I'm the kind of person
I warned myself about!.

Yeah, today I woke up screaming ...

Yeah! I heard a phone ring from deep down within
A friendly voice whistling under my skin
Yeay! I have to stop my enterprise below
But I'm not so sure the guy will let me go...
Yeah! My girls says I'm overdressed & my God says nothing at all
Yeah! It's funny how I'm in hip-deep feels like the D's got my soul
Overmuch I'm too much I'm overmuch
I'm way over Overmuch
I'm too much I'm overmuch
I'm way out of reach and way out of touch

And I roll on the floor that's what the floor is for
And I walk out that door that's what the door is for
In the night I'm way out of sight
But in the day I keep getting in the way Yeah!!
You see my friends says I'm over the top & I should chill out the wild
But, you can see it in my face & my smile I'm gonna stay for a while
Overmuch I'm too much I'm overmuch
I'm way over Overmuch
I'm too much Too overmuch
Much Much Much Much Overmuch AhhYeah!
Overmuch I wasn't born as such
Overmuch But I've become way I've become way*3
I'm way over overmuch Overmuch
That's what I am, Yeah! I'm overmuch
Yeah, tell me... Overmuch
I'm not like other men I'm too much I'm overmuch!