Scare Yourself

Wide eyed
Open mouthed
Blank faced
Low clouds
Long walk
Up from hell
But I came back
Back unbent
What it means
Is that I'm good
That much
Is understood
But all in the room
Is dark because
Life is no longer what it was

Lawrence of Suburbia
Real life is murder
Wake up from Utopia
On it again
All aboard the moneytrain

Everyday
As a rule
I'm distant
I'm cool
Not the same
As before
I've folded up suicide
In four
But this dirty sun
Shining down
Pierce the dark
And the sound
All you'll see
Is a tightlipped smile
On a scared little man
As the train runs wild...

Lawrence of....

Somebody mentioned a new start
Keeping me off of the old track
Try and take showers in Prozac
Just to see how fast
I close the door to the past
I used to be looking for a reason
I used to have time to explain
Now I'm going to fast for conditions
Outta my lane - I'm going too fast to change

If it's a good day to give it up
Then I surrender
Call it a day and call the cops
Repeat offender...

Never had trouble with balance
Wasn't a thing I couldn't fit
I used to be up for the challenge
From a hero a monster to a great piece of shit

If it's a good day to give it up
Then I surrender
Call it a day and call the cops
Repeat offender...
If it's a good day to give it up,
If there was someone to make me stop,
If there's a good way to call it off
Then I surrender....

Do you still take part yeah do you still have dreams in this frozen state
You're robbed of a future that always yeah always arrives too late...

You scare yourself with the future
Yeah its hollow chest seems full
No room for rebellion
You only see the strings that pull
Scared into boredom
Yeah 'coz the things that tempt your fate
Just grows into trouble
Both some old and some up to date
Scare yourself into empty space
A distant star above the human race
Scare yourself about the getting down
'coz when you look down you never left the ground

Scare yourself into darker nights
Scare yourself on how you live your life
Scare yourself far away from the light
Today is the worst day of your life...

You're too afraid to remember
You know you're going to dream what you saw
But you will not be listening
To what it says but for the knock on the door
Scare yourself up against the wall
Your face is white from a voice that calls
You're the trap and the bait as well
You're so smart you're gonna scare yourself

Scare yourself into darker nights
Scare yourself on how you live your life
Scare yourself about the getting down
'Cause when you look down you never left the ground...
You never left the ground...

You're money
You're wellearned property
You own yourself your three-fifths
Of a plan
You're in good use
You know what you're worth
And it's true when tomorrow comes
We're all in an unknown land

You're no hero
You're just a misfit like us all
Sometimes we don't know
Which way to turn

I'm a bankloan
I rent this place I call home
I got no car
Cuz I got no gas for the tank
The cost of living is high
I kiss my savings good bye
While your money is living in the bank

You're no hero
You're just a misfit like us all
Sometimes we don't know
Which way to turn
You've never seen sunshine
Unless you've really seen the rain
I'm not jealous of your life my friend

What we've been given
Is an offer we can't resist
At terms that we're unable to believe
Who's who when we're through
We cannot tell
When we're standing on the roof
Looking up into hell

My feet were in London
My head in the clouds
And I'm constantly moving
With the holiday crowds
This happy future
Is a thing of the past
I watch the day ending
I watch shadows pass the city's
Arriving I begin to feel fine
Then the city sits down
And I go out of my mind
I've ended up taking
The longest way home
I'm cool but I'm all alone

Hey now I'm out the door like a cat
Across the tracks
And never once looking back
Hey now
There's nothing new in that
Not everybody knows
The good from the bad

Enough for one day now
The edge of the world
Look at the frontpage
And what it did to the girl
Her shit was together
Her feet on the ground
Now it's sounding like zippers
As the dryer goes round
To the man with the most
Whose face never changes
Enough for one day now
Yeah - I'm cool

Hey now I'm out the door like a cat
Across the tracks
And never once looking back
Hey now
There's nothing new in that
Not everybody knows
The good from the bad hey hey
Just hear what I say
I take the blame
But not the pain pain pain

Emotional morons
Knows from instinct what to do
The winds are northern
This is the sound we persue
You never know it
What we carry around inside
We never show it
But we carry it for life
Down on the square
All my friends are there

Camping in Scandinavia
We don't mind
Camping in Scandinavia
When the sun don't shine
You'll see it upon arrival
We've been beautiful 'n' suicidal
Camping in Scandinavia
We don't mind

Smoke is rising a sattelite
For every tent in the snow
Of the TV in cities of 70's cement civilisation...
No real need for a God hybernation.
We all wake up by March
Down on the square
All my friends are there

I hope my mind is like a parachute
I hope it opens on time
I know the same as I knew before
All is lost inside
I know that I must turn and strip
All the armour from my heart
I must stop all this
From going wrong
It mustn't show on the outside
A broken brain
With the truth
To be as bad as it takes
Yeah to be a true saint
In the name of the unexplained
Ain't gonna give 'em no rest
This is serious business
In the name of the unexplained
I know that life's real mystery
Maybe further out than death
If I know everything about the world
I wish I knew a little less
We all stare at the ground
Hands in pockets going round 'n' round
Abuse and irony hurting me
The blisters on my tongue
The shamefaced shuffle
The tightlipped smile
Taste your medicine
I know who I am
And so do you
It just goes round and round
I know my mind
Is like a hurricane
And I will blow you all away

Little addict
Worst I've seen
For your own good
Don't get mean
If I seem distant
C'mon guess who moved
It's your own existence
No excuse
Won't you tell me
What you find
When you get a life
And start shaping your mind
Then I'll tell you
What I see
When you do it for money
You'll never do it for free
Yeah you had it too close to the bone
You're perfect
When you're not stoned

Tell me how it feels
To be in your shoes
With your natural gift
For hiding the truth
When the world outside is slowing
You stop yourself from growing
Won't you tell me
What you find
Little addict
Too close to the bone
You're perfect
When you're not stoned

Mr Hyde Mr Hyde
You stare at me at the stoplight
Mr Hyde Mr Hyde
Something ain't exactly right
You see it's doom
And it's gloom
Instead of hopes
Instead of dreams
The glittering stardom
Is never what it seems

Living a dirty fairytale
Noone stops you
Like you stop yourself
Living a dirty fairytale
Noone stops you

Mr Hyde Mr Hyde
My head is under my arm now
It's just my animal side
Don't really mean you no harm
If it's bad or if it's wrong
See I'm really not asking
I just wanna see what I've done
Coz now it hurts when I'm laughing

Sometimes when I'm dreaming
Heading to God knows where
That's when it hits me
It seems I'm already there
But there's no forgiving
In the silence of my mind
Nothing is living
Nothing there to go round

If this is what it looks like
When the world's gonna end
Then it's allright
If this is what it feels like
Then I'll do it again
Yeah it's allright
Yeah I know that I'm glad it's over
But what comes next may be worse
If this is what it looks like
When the world's gonna end
Then I'm allright allright

I've tried to be humble
I've tried to be proud
My world is cracked open
And I'm slowly leaking out
I call on an angel
Who often saved my life
Nobody sees us
When we're swimming through the crowd
There ways there means
To shatter your dreams
I lost the attention
If you know what I mean
I just letting go
Melting away
I finally see
I'm on the last day
But I'm allright

No one taught me how to change my mind
I need one great voice that tells me that it's fine
I come from a small place of one evil, one true
And I know that silence destroys the truth in you
You filled my head with fear
You said the world was bad
And then you shook my ear
You said it was a fact
Everybody's haunted
By a past they hate...
I'm hearing echoes of the words you said

I'm surrounded by monsters and I repeat as I should
Fired up by a burning desire to be good
I hope that my troubles would die where they were
But a supernova of memories will occur
You filled my head with fear
You said the world was bad
And then you shook my ear
You said it was a fact
Everybody's haunted
By a past they hate...
I’m hearing echoes of the words you said
Yeah you filled my head….

Hey, I don't wanna look back now
Even in the worst of times
Hey, look at my shadow
It's the shadow of a child

You filled my head with fear
You said the world was bad
And then you shook my ear
You said it was a fact
Everybody's haunted
By a past they hate...
Nothing is important
Memory locked the gate
And if the door would open
Reveal a better place
Do I still have dreams
In this frozen state?
Everybody's haunted
By a past they hate...
I'm hearing echoes of the words you said
Yeah you filled my head…

You say you want silence
But no man’s an island
You know it takes all kinds
To make up a world
And you don’t want trouble
But you’re making it double
When you’re afraid to get hurt

You say you want patience
'Cause everything’s changing
And no one’s waiting
For yesterday’s news...
Your one chance of winning
Was if the world stopped spinning
Like all dreamers do...

If the world just made another mistake
Because it didn’t read your mind
And if the world just made another heart break
By leaving you behind
It’s because you live inside of your head
All the time…

Then someone mentions
Hey share your intentions
But what everyone else thinks
You don’t wanna know
Life’s a relation
Whatever you’re facing
You wanna do it alone

If you could save a life
With what you know…
If the life you saved
Would be your own…
Or you stayed forever in that state
A little slow a little late